in the beginning....

so i have fallen into the ranks of a 'blogger'...hmmm. i read these other blogs with this desperate sense that i wish i was doing that--- recording the joys, the tears, the projects, the pictures, the moments...as i have heard 'for the old woman within'. yet----it makes me nervous too. how easy to highlight the good- the pretty- the peaceful...and conveniently leave out the hard- the messy- the chaos. will i want to remember both? gosh i think so...but there are days now that i don't even want to remember yesterday. so (?) i am in awe of these creative souls sharing their lives with me through a computer....so much inspiration, so many amazing ideas so much more i could be doing so so so so quickly becomes sos....all i really want to do is something real. something that will last. love that is good enough to feel when you're far away. a home you can be at home in. days with my children that are reflections of how i really feel about them. a heart that sings a song that God put there in the beginning of time. so i'm fairly certain i have no idea how to actually do a blog...( for example---blogger automatically gave me the name flavia fla...? why? do i look like a club dancer looking for a stage name? well possibly...) but here in my innocence i will attempt to write a blog for myself...for my children some day..for my children's children...ok so probably just me really. :)